Contemplations...

CONTEMPLATIONS OF MYSELF.....

I see this other girl in the mirror…nd every time I do I get swayed away by the aura surrounding her…the way she looks confident to face the world... never letting anything stop her…her self confidence boosted…tht girl in tht mirror….she has something in her tht I don’t…I know her yet I don’t…she isn’t the same every time I meet her…I fall in love with her every time nd I wanna see her more…bt when I leave her… I realize there is nothing I gained from her…I just look at her…nd don’t learn anything…she has got the confidence I lack….the guts to face the world nd nt think abt it…tht girl,tht girl in the mirror…she is way different from me bt yet I find her so alike…who is she??...ppl say u see ur own reflection in the mirror…but is she really me?? Or am I really her??

I had thought first tht when I first see my reflection in the mirror. I will see a dark faced girl with deep black eyes with probably a smile….bt when I looked the first time I didn’t see her…instead I saw a nt too dark face with beautifully deep eyes nd a most warming smile…I looked back thinking someone was standing behind me…bt there was no one…I looked all around…there was none bt me…I again looked in the mirror…bt I couldn’t find myself…there was someone else everytime I looked…it wasn’t me…I frantically searched bt yet again I never saw myself-the dark face, deep black eyes with a smile….I always saw her…I ran away…After a few days nd a lot of courage I looked once again nd again I saw “her”…tht girl…who was she?

LONER

It was late afternoon...

I was sitting on the staircase with the sun on my back and cool breeze blowing, with my hair scattered on my face....my ipod playin my favourite song...and i was lost into deep thought...

My exams had just got over nd i was doin the thing i loved the most...be lost in a world where only Me nd My thoughts were allowed...were no one judged me...where i did nt have meet anyones expectations nd...where i could finally be alone...

Yes i am loner...nd i have no regrets in being one...

I have always heard tht its painful to be one...bt I dont think so...ppl who are nt find a loner to be cynical...bt the ones who are can relate to everyone...

Its nt easy to be loner...its difficult...bcoz u ALWAYS want to hide away from the world nd be lost in a world of your own...then the world becomes a place from which you want nothing...where u have no expectations nd where if u are broken or hurt it doesnt matter because in the process of being a loner u go through so much of pain tht pain given by "materialistic" things dont matter...

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When the littlest of appreciation makes u happy....

When all u need is a small pat on ur back when u are down...

When a hug gives u all the encouragement u neeed....

When ppl matter so much tht u forget urself admist them...

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When tht happens...u turn into a loner....bcoz at times all u want is urself...to disappear into a world where u can be at peace coz out of it no one is there to understand u!

Being a loner is nt a crime...its just a phase...

And for ME...

the longer the phase the better is it!