Monday, December 26, 2011

ELOV



L,O,V,E- these are four harmless alphabets which when joined together form a word tht infects ur mind body and soul.
Its like a virus which takes away everything from you. Its grows at a speed tht one can never think of. It destroys everything inside you.
And if one dose of this virus isnt enough to destroy you...then it keeps injecting itself in you in some form or another till it destroys you.




She held her heads in her hands and cried. There is nothing else she could do. She just sat and cried.
At times its easier to just cry. She just wanted HIM to hold her once.Hold her gently but firmly with his arms around her. She wanted him to cradle her against his chest once. She wanted him to tell her that everything would be fine, that he would be here for her and that they would find a way to be together.
She needed him. She wanted him. She craved for his touch. She missed his voice. she had to see his eyes light up when he would smile. She longed to see his hair messed up.
She required him.


And he was never going to be there.
Never going to hold her, touch her.
Never going to smile again at her or mess his hair cause she loved it soo much.
Never going to keep talking cause she was always charmed by his voice.
Never going to be here, never going to be hers.
Never, never, never.


Loving someone is never easy, loving a man who will never be yours is intolarable, loving a married man who will never be yours but loves u back is the worst of the lot.


And it was the third type of virus tht had infected her. It had taken everything with it. All of her.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Forbidden love

Why is it tht the love which is forbidden is always the one which is the most enticing one.
Why is tht the human heart and mind binds on something it can never achieve.
Why is it tht inspite knowing tht this love will only leave behind deep scars and broken pieces, we step on it.
Why is it tht which is forbidden is always the most exciting.
Why is it tht the curiosity of knowing why something is forbidden reins over ourselves and we jump into it to figure out wht exactly it is.
Why is forbidden love so powerful.

Forbidden love is so enticing, exciting, powerful because in tht love,
There is no you or me...it is us.
There is no future...not even a hope for a future...its just the present.
There are no promises or hopes to hold on to...its just each other...


Forbidden love...carries the sharpest knife to create the deepest scar...
bt instead...it gives the slightest of mark..

It is not any child`s play...its not something easy to step into...
Its not romantic...
It requires courage to get into something knowing fully well u will have to walk out alone..
It requires strength to face tht future of not a happily ever after...
It requires force to tell yourself over and over again it wont happen in real...
It requires the purity of a strong heart to let go...and still hold on...

Then why do ppl fall into the trap of forbidden love..


Because forbidden love inspires u to cleanse your heart and love unselfishly...
Because it makes us live and enjoy the present with tht person with no expectation of a future...
Because its just forbidden...


Each forbidden love has created a great story...
Because only two very foolish ppl can get together to create something great...

Friday, August 26, 2011

SUMMER



Each summer brings with its self a reason to change, to grow, to understand , to blossom, to become refreshed. It brings with its self, something to look forward too, something to rejoice for and a fresh new start.
Flowers bloom, the sun shines brightly , the earth lights up for the new change, there is more colour, more of naturalness.

But as the sun shines brightly on one side of earth...there is another side that doesn't get this shine any more...

Flowers that had bloomed die, animals go into hibernation, there is “coldness” in the air...people become more “artificial”.
Each summer brings with itself, a reason to let go some relations, a reason to change some beliefs, some drastic changes, some “coldness”.It brings in with itself a reason to be artificial...and a lot of looking back.

For every college going student, SUMMER forms a big transition.

From the security of school to the insecurity of college...
From leaving old frnds to making new ones...
From leaving home to accepting new culture..
From fun filled laughter to tear filled eyes...
From heart to heart talks to long fights...
From wearing black to wearing white...
From being natural to being artificial..
From being best frnds to having cold wars...

New frnds, old relations, new city, old culture,
new outlook, old habits, new me, old self.
Summer tears us apart and brings us closer to knowing ourselves. It teaches that life is not always fair but it is not always unfair too...

Each summer gives way to rain...each summer gives way to wash away your grievances,fears and insecurity...to hope for a new start.

Just as one side of the earth now moves from summer into winter the other side moves from winter into summer...





Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Madno...Mashuko...Dilbaro...


Hai dil ko teri aarzu…par mein tujhe na pa saku…

There are some love stories that never meet a happy ending…that does not mean that they still don’t want each other…first love never fades from our memories…

Main hu lab to dua…dono jud ke juda…

Ask two lovers driven apart bcoz of religion and culture and caste…what it is to lose tht person who is close to u yet so far…so near yet so far…with u, in u but never there…

Fir aasu bahana ek dafa…

And whenever tht love crosses our mind…makes it presence felt in our hearts…a tear comes down the eye…to signify tht it still does matter…it still does...

Mujhe ras aati hai khushiyan kaha re

Ask those couples who lived more than 50 years with their partner nd then one fine day they were snatched away from them…their love nd happiness was all in them..their life was their partner…

Teri hi toh hai khushbu mujhme haa…

No matter where u are…wht we were…wht we are nt…wht happens..u will stay in this heart of mine…u will remain as the most beloved fragrance of my life..

Haa tera sayan toh main hu…par sang tera na chal saku...

I will be there with u..walking with u…in ways u wont know…in ways u wont understand…but I will always be there…for u…loving u…just there…walking by you like ur shadow…

Madano…mashuko…dilbaro...

Sunday, April 10, 2011

"Knowing me well"

I was told "I know u, I know u very well...dont even try hiding anything from me...I will know...one look at your face...nd I will know exactly what u are hiding...so dont even try" and I smiled.


It has been ten months now...

Ten months of pretence and hiding...

Nd you...all that u said abt "knowing me" so well...it was all false


Because…


U could not see the pain in my eyes...

U could not understand the fear in me...

U could not look through the fake smile...

U could not listen to the tears which flowed…


I was important to you...and yet u could not see through me...

And now everything else is so important that u look past me...

All those words have come shattering down...

All that hope has been lost...

All expectations have been crushed into tiny pieces…


Now when I remember those words of yours "I know u, I know u very well...dont even try hiding anything from me...I will know...one look at your face...nd I will know exactly what u are hiding...so don't even try"...

I still do smile-on my stupidity...

Friday, February 11, 2011

Hopeless Wisher...

I have wished and hoped...

tht...I would sit next to u near a beach...with my head on ur shoulders...leaving the world behind...
tht...I cuddle into u when i am tired and watch television....
tht...I would cook for u once...
tht...I would like to go with u in the depths of the sea knowing nothing would happen bcoz u were there..
tht...I would hold your hand nd walk along those paths which scare me..

tht...I would dress up for u once..
I have thought of ways to meet u..nd then decided against it...
tht...I would take u for shopping...
tht...I could love u with my whole heart...with no fear from anywhere...
tht...u would be the reason for my existence...

But I never said it until now...bcoz they were wishes nd hopes...
I am a hopeless wisher...

I know nothin of it is ever ever possible...
Whenever I have wished or hoped, most of the time it has been broken..
I know these are already broken...
There would be no point wishin at all...bt I dared to wish...U taught me how to...

Nd I did wish...knowing very well tht they are impossible...tht every single one of them is impossible...
Its nt easy for me too to take in the impossible...
Its nt easy to tell u its impossible...it takes courage to tell the same person nd yourself over nd over again its impossible...

There is a barrier of over 4000 km nd 5 yrs...which we can not break...and it will never break...
I dont know wht love is all abt...frankly speaking I really dont care anymore wht it is all about...
All I know is...U are someone special nd close...
The age difference is huge...the two individuals involved are complete opposites who have managed to form a relation tht binds them...

This thread cannot be broken no matter how much we try...bcoz we can`t..
I cant delete U from my life..
Bcoz life gave U to me as a gift...
To understand myself...U...and the world we comprise...

Monday, January 24, 2011

A frndship so unfeigned...

I didn't meet you anywhere...nor did i know you well,

You just came out of the blue in my life...

Frnds i had thought we would never become...

Acquaintance was a big word...


We spent hrs on the phone,

Discussing our problems nd views of the world outside...

The pain felt when someone hurt u...

The joy felt when someone loved u...


We were always there for one other...

Be it five in the morning or twelve at night...

Time is something which never came between our frndship...

And we were always a phone call away...


A blind trust developed nd we never had to tell each other abt it...

In hearts we knew,

Tht nothing can stop us from being true.


No words were required...

No promises or conditions were ever there...

Two completely diff ppl thrown in by life to share a frndship so unfeigned.


We stood for one another when the world was against...

Speaking volumes of the frndship we share deep inside...

Teaching each other the meaning of a profound frndship...

From cards to emails to advice ..

We did everything to show we are wise

Jokes a many we share...

And laughed as we care..


The warmth of your frndship i will never forget...

The joy i felt hearing you laugh...

Your pains were mine too...

Those sweet words you told me will ever remain..


And in my heart deep nd true..

You will always remain through nd through...


Wit time we will age...

Seasons will come nd go...

Bt with your everlasting smile you will always remain in my mind...


We made a frndship pure honest nd true..

And it will always remain tht way..

Coz though we hardly talk or meet..

We will always be there in each ones heart..

Treasuring the time spent together...


For neither were we best or good frnds..

Bt way above tht...

We are two completely diff ppl thrown in by life to share a frndship so unfeigned...

Friday, January 14, 2011

Need someone...

I just need someone to hold me real tight,
To assure me tht everything will be alright...

I just need someone to listen to my tears,
To free me of all my fears...

I just need someone to listen to my pain,
To tell me tht everything will not be in vain...

I just need someone to be there for me,
To tell my destiny not to play again with me...

I just need someone to understand my situation,
To help me move on from my hurt station...

I just need someone to hug me tight,
To assure me tht this time life will be alright!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Its weird...

Its weird isnt it...when u are a priority in someone’s life nd then suddenly without any notice u don’t remain tht priority anymore...
Its weird isnt it...tht in the beginning u want ppl to take u for granted nd then a time comes when u feel irritated when they actually do!
Its weird isnt it...when relations change their directions so easily nd quickly tht u actually have to stop once in a while to actually know where exactly u are standing with tht person...
Its weird isnt it...when u lose yourself completely for one person nd then never ever find yourself no matter how much u try...
Its weird isnt it...how crisis changes u every single time...
Its weird isnt it...when pain kills u every time...nd then u decide tht u won’t let it affect nd the next time it still kills u all over again...
Its weird isnt it...tht though it’s OUR heart it refuses to listen to us once also...
Its weird isnt it...tht when someone becomes so imp u want the rest of the world to take a seat back without complaining...
Its weird isnt it...tht we want to do everything we want nd still want tht ppl don’t get hurt...
Its so weird when two ppl fall in love n then fall out of it...nd fall in love again...
Its weird isnt it...tht u can live in 2 worlds at the same time...
Its weird isnt it...tht when the clock in my city shows 2 in the morning, at exactly that time in 80% of the world the time is entirely different...
Its weird isnt it tht life suddenly takes such drastic turn’s tht when u decide to stop nd look back...u realise tht u have come so far in such a short time...
Its weird isnt it tht like the river though life seems same nd calm nd nt disturbing on the outside...there is a turmoil going inside...
Its weird isnt it....tht though we do the same thing every single day when we look back we still feel as if life has changed so drastically...
Its weird isnt it...tht though u know me nd I know u I still don’t know who u actually are...
Its weird isnt it...tht every single time the world has come to an end...evolution has taken place...
Its weird isnt it...tht though life nd death are lovers they can never be together....
Its weird tht though I am I...the girl who looks back at me in the mirror is never "I" !!!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Once in a while...

Its a thought tht crosses my mind once in a while...
Nd it always keep me wondering...

In our own lives, specially mine...
I always have this feeling tht God above is always looking out...
He knows wht i am going through...wht i am feeling...
He knows my fears, dreams nd everything else which i hide or show the rest of the world..
I always have the feeling tht he knows wht is best for me...
Tht he is listening to everything I say...
He is hearing to everything tht i am nt saying...

And then I look around...
And i see all those humans...

And then i wonder....there are 6,891,400,000 humans in the world...
Out of them only 2.3% are atheists...
The rest believe tht there is something or somebody who is listening nd hearing them...

and while thinking this a smile creeps its way out...
as the voice from inside speaks...

I go mad handling a handful of people in my life...
All the best God for handling 97.6% of the world!!!