Pieces of me...

Today all I have is myself...

With no one I wanna call my frnd...

With a woven sheath around me...

Now I have become immune to pain nd joy...

Where expectations no longer exist...

Today all I have is my pain...

With no desire from anyone...

No love care or concern do i want...

Where grey and black is wht i yearn...

Today all I have is my fear...

The fear to mingle with someone new...

To come out nd make someone close...

To loose myself yet again for someone...

To hurt myself all over again...

Today all I have is my broken heart...

Which was once filled with love...

Which did beat for once...

Today all I have is myself...

With no one I wanna love or call my own...

No words of frndship or love I want...

No care or concern...

Noone I want to tell my fears, pains or secrets too...

No one at all...

Today I just wanna be with myself...

With my woven sheath around me...

Reverberates of my heart...

I have started talkin more to myself...

Loosing out on topics to talk on...

On issues to argue on...

People term it as a metamorphosis...

Bt its turning me insane...

Coz its breakin me inside...

All i need is nt someone to LISTEN to my HEART bt someone to LISTEN to the PAIN behind the ECHO of my HEARTBEATS...

Its breakin me inside...this pain its creating...

Nd it isnt the first time its happenin...bt everytime tht it does it deepens the wounds tht have been created in tht thing we call our heart...

Its just another one of those times where my pain has become more family than anything or anyone else...

Its just another one of those moments where ppl can nt read between my lines nd feel the pain i am goin through...

Its just another one of those instants where i am loosin myself...

I keep learning every day how far i am goin from who i used to nd discover a new me...

Someone i dont know...someone who is different..someone who is searching for me...coz she is a new me...

Someone i cant understand well..coz i dont her yet...i dont her how frndly she will be...or how quickly will i understand her....

Coz though being ME...she is still nt ME...

I hate this phase... cause it brings out a new me...

I love this phase...cause it brings out a new me...

And today...

I dont know who i am...i dont know wht i was...nd i dont know who i want to become...

Coz i need...

I need nt someone to LISTEN to my HEART bt someone to LISTEN to the PAIN behind the ECHO of my HEARTBEATS...